Monday, 26 January 2009

Who am I? #2

I wrote a post a few weeks ago talking about the journey I'm on to have a clearer understanding of who I am in God. The Bethel DVD's I've been watching (18 down and 6 to go!) and the book I'm currently reading (Dreaming with God - Bill Johnson) have all been feeding into this. I certainly feel different although I'm not sure I could adequately articulate what has changed at the moment. It's like something has shifted in my Spirit but my mind is going to need a while longer to catch up. That said, here's my attempt to share with you some of what's been going on: (more posts to follow as I get more revelation)

1) I am a new creation. When Jesus died on the cross my old self that was a slave to sin was crucified with Him. And when He rose again from the dead I was raised up with Him. When I gave my life to Him I became dead to sin and alive to God. I became a brand new creation - holy and righteous and completely spotless. I became a Daughter and a Princess; an Ambassador for Christ and a Saint. This is my new identity, but how often do I really live like it? Often as Christians we refer to oursleves as sinners saved by grace - this of course is true; we were sinners and we have been saved by grace. But the reality now is that we're Saints. We're no longer sinners because we're dead to sin! Now of course it's true that we still sin, but our thinking must be the right way round: rather than thinking of ourselves as sinners who sometimes act like Saints, we should consider ourselves first and foremost as Saints who sometimes sin. Do you see how the thinking is completely different? (this is also important because 'what we imagine, we become.' If we're imagining oursleves primarily as sinners that will act out in our behaviour, however if we imagine ourselves as God sees us how much more effective might we become?)

2) It's not humility to try to crucify the 'new man'. Christians will often speak negatively of themselves and try to kill their dreams or desires in an attempt to make themselves low - in an attempt to appear fully surrendered to God and His purposes, without realising that the ability to dream is a God-given gift (I speak to myself here as much as anyone else!) More to the point, I don't know if God ever intended us to be low in the first place? Ephesians says that we've been raised up with Christ and that we're seated with Him in heavenly places. I wonder if when we seek to make ourselves low so as not to appear proud we actually undermine the value God has given us as His sons and daughters?

We were singing a refrain at a recent leaders meeting that went like this, 'more of you and less of me.' In the past I would have sung along with everyone else but this time I felt a check in my spirit. Of course I want more of God - It's all about Him. But less of me? Is that really an appropriate response when God places huge value on who I am as a person. I wanted to sing, 'more of you and more of me as you've made me to be.' Then I read this in the next chapter of the book I'm reading; 'Dreaming with God.'

'Many have prayed, 'None of me, all of You.' God had none of us before we were born and He didn't like it. He created us for His pleasure. A better prayer would be, 'All of me covered my all of You!'

Anyone challenged to change their thinking yet?

Friday, 23 January 2009

'Hit the Streets'

Join us for our second 'Hit the Streets' event in Bedford. Our last event in November saw 150 people descend on Bedford from all over the country. It's an opportunity to recieve in-depth training on treasure hunting and then head out onto the streets to put the theory into practise. Last time throughout the course of the day we saw a total of 15 people healed. You can hear the stories here. To sign up for your free place follow this link. Hope you can join us!

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

Six Clues Come Together

During our latest treasure hunt we had an encounter with one lady that saw 6 of our clues (across 3 different maps) come together!

I was hunting with two first timers from out of town (one had travelled from London and one as far as Derby - they did an amazing job!) My only location clue was O2 (the mobile phone shop) I was pretty sure we had one in Bedford, although I didn't know where. I asked a fellow Bedfordian and they directed us down the pedestrianised street.

The shop itself was very quiet. There was one customer at the checkout and two shop assistants. The customer had long black leather boots on, but apart from that no other appearance clues matched. We decided to head a bit further down the street to see what else we could find.

We'd gone about 20 metres when we came across an ice cream van. My friend had laughed when he'd got that clue - it was absolutely freezing outside, surely no-one would be selling ice cream in this weather! We also saw some gargoyls on the building nearby and we'd stopped just outside Marks and Spencer - a shop that used green bags. Our clues were coming together.

Just then the lady we'd seen in the O2 shop with the long black leather boots walked past the ice cream van, M & S and the gargoyles, carrying an O2 bag!! God was clearly speaking so we apprached the woman to explain what we were doing. It turned out that she has a son called James who has to have speech therapy because he has trouble speaking. We got to pray for Him that God would break in and heal His speech. We also got to pray for the lady's husband who was currently out of work and looking for a new job. It was an amazing opportunity to show this woman that God knows her and that He's really interested in her life and her family. It was also an amazing experience of six clues coming together!

Friday, 16 January 2009

A Prophetic Game!

Ask for a volunteer, blindfold them and then stand them in the middle of a group of people. The rest of the group then moves around the blindfolded person until someone is secretly chosen to stand behind them. Once someone is behind the person they tap them on the shoulder to let them know that it's time to begin prophesying. Blindfolded person duly hears from God and shares prophetic words!

I have played this game 3 times now. Twice with the youth group I lead and once with my adult small group. I have been amazed at the accuracy of the prophetic words that have been delivered. Why don't you give it a go!

Tuesday, 13 January 2009

Training for Supernatural Ministry

Here's the new FP-Impact project I wrote about a few weeks ago. Information about the training is now on our website. A prospectus and application form are coming soon. Check it out!

We're currently in the process of sorting out the syllabus for the year. That involves me watching 24 teaching DVD's (and PJ and Simon 12 each) from Bethel's School of Supernatural Ministry (Redding, California). We're wanting to learn from people who have been running this kind of training for many years and thought Bill Johnson and his team were the perfect choice! It may sound like an arduous task, but God is really ministering to me through the teaching.

Last week I was watching a DVD about knowing God as our Father. As the speaker came to the end of his session he prayed a prayer of healing over the students in the room for how their earthly Father had interacted with them. I found myself crying at my desk as the Holy Spirit came and ministered to me. So far I've watched 5 out of my 24 DVD's. I expect there is more healing to come!!

Sunday, 11 January 2009

Sugar Lumps!

I laughed out loud when one of our treasure hunters today told me he had the clue sugar lumps! My thought process when something like this - (sarcastic tone) 'That's a wierd one - happy hunting!!'

About an hour later I had to repent for my attitude as the guy shared how he'd had the opportunity to pray for an elderly couple in the Swan Hotel who were out for afternoon tea. They had a bowl of sugar lumps on their table. Amazing!

Thursday, 1 January 2009

My Dreams for 2009

I don't make New Years Resolutions; mainly because I end up breaking them and then I feel discouraged. But I do like to dream a bit with God. I started this last year. I wrote down some of the things I wanted to see happen during 2008. Some of the things I've seen:

1) To see at least one healing on the street - I think I've actually seen about 8-10 so far (that's personally - as a church we've seen much more!)
2) To go on a missions trip - I went on two last year, both to Dublin

And some are yet to come about:

1) To see at least one deaf person healed.
2) To look into buying a house - Maybe 2009 will be the year for that what with dropping house prices??

And what about my dreams for 2009? Well here are some of my thoughts so far:

1) I really want to grow in my security in God. To grasp what it means for me to be His daughter and to be a Princess in His Kingdom (if anyone has any ideas as to how to go about doing this, please get in touch)
2) I want to learn to be someone who's great at being sensitive to the Holy Spirit - to be aware of His presence all the time and to be increasingly aware of what He's doing/saying.
3) I'm stopping leading the King's Arms youth work this year. I want to do a great job at handing it over so that it really flourishes.
4) I want to see someone saved on the streets
5) I want to see the next level of breakthrough in healing - at least 1 out of the 5 that Jesus regularly demonsrated; blind seeing, deaf hearing, lame walking, incurable diseases healed, the dead raised!

As I'm writing these dreams I'm feeling a check in my spirit that they're probably way too small and the following scripture comes to mind:

'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him.' 1 Corinthians 2 v9

I think 2009 is going to be a very good year!